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Thursday, September 3, 2009
i felt lyk lying on th bed.... there's nothing i can do.... why i always find things hard to solve? is either came too fast or too slow.... now, i felt lyk im standing at th edge of a cliff.... 1 small step i might jus fall.... i dun know why i things get out of hand so easily.... everything seems so hard to me... i was terrified tat i make a mistake and i might jus fall lyk tt... haii.... my life was in a mess now... i jus dunno how am i goanna clear it... i wanna have a peaceful life tats all... why i was th one keep facing all tis unecessary things? i dun get it... Today i sinned.... i felt im a person tat cnt get over a certain temptation... i felt so useless in god's eyes.... i thought i can change into a good person by lord jesus... but it seems tat it didn happen... i felt so useless... very useless... i knew tat god is watching me sin today.. yet i still doin it... i know saying sorry isn wad god wants... sometimes, i jus wanna know wad god really wan me to do... but i cnt felt his presence to a certain extent... or was it god trying to test me with tis? if yes, sorry i had fail.... life had been miserable for me since sec2.... i already used to it.. sorry... my heavenly father... i jus wanna say sorry to u.... im so sorry.... i wish i could understand u more.... haii... 93674, 4 6477 968..... |
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