"只有失去的温柔最温柔"
ever since i lost you, everything in my world become colder....
Saturday, May 30, 2009

I've got a A-Z quiz;
*having carzy thoughts*
A is for Ashley
1) Do you love this person?
- kind of?
2) Is this person your enemy?
- No
3) Would you hug this person?
- not at tis moment =.=
B is for Brian
1) What do you really think of this person?
- sucker
2) What’s his/her favorite color?
- no idea
3) Ever danced with him/her?
- Nope
C is for Clarin
1) What do you think of this person?
- Complicated?
2) How far does this person live?
- not so sure...
3) How old is he/she?
- 15
D is for Darren
1) How long have you known him/her?
- 2years plus bah?
2) Do you like this person?
- ok ok lo
3) Do you hate this person?
- not realli
E is for Elaine
1) Have you met their parents?
- No
2) Worst thing about this person?
- nothing
3) Best thing about this person?
- knows how to plae bass guitar bah...
F is for Frederick
1) Have you ever dated this person?
- No
2) When is the next time you will see him/her?
- when school reopens?
3) Do you go to school with them?
- never
G is for Gilbert
1) Have you heard this person sing?
- so far haven yet
2) What's his/her pet's name?
- No pet
3) Will he/she repost this?
- i hope he will^^
H is for Hermun
1) Have you met their parents?
- yeah
2) Worst thing about this person?
- nothing
3) Best thing about this person?
- open minded and easy to communicate?
I is for Ian
1) What is this person's favorite food?
- no idea
2) How did you meet this person?
- MJR?
3) Do you trust him/her?
-sometimes
J is for Jun wen
1) They have any siblings?
- yea
2) Do you know their favorite song?
- never ask=.=
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you?
- i dun give a care to them
K is for Kelly
1) How old were you when you first met?
- 13
2) Do you like him/her as a friend?
- yup
3) Would you go to disney world with this person?
- nvr thought of tat
L is for Lenade
1) Is this person older than you?
- smaller than me
2) Is this person single?
- dun know
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week?
- nvr talk since sec3
M is for Meihua
1) How old were you when you first met?
- 11?
2) Whats his/hers pets name?
- no pet,i supposed?
3) Ever danced with this person?
- No
N is for Nigel
1) How old were you when you first met the person?
- 14
2) Do you like this person?
- abit luh
3) What would you do if you had never met this person?
- life per normal?
O is for Olivia
1) Are you related?
- sort of
2) Could you live with this person?
- no
3) What school do they go to?
- haven ask yet
P is for Pei ling
1) Have you been to the mall with this person?
- mayb hav,i forgot liao
2) How about a sleepover with them?
- no way
3) Does this person have a job?
- No idea
Q is for Qingting
1) Do you know if this person is having/had a relationship?
- dun know and i dun even wan to know
2) How did you know this person?
- she's from my pri sch
3) Does she like mathematics?
- mayb
R is for Rayner
1) Have you heard this person sing?
- yup
2) Will she/he repost this?
- see his mood?
3) When does this person look best?
- when goin CHC?
S is for Shahrul
1) Is this person taller than you?
- nope
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?
-ok ok lo
3) Is this person your friend?
- no,he's my bro
T is for Teck lee
1) What grade is this person in?
- Same
2) Would you hug this person?
- No, I dun hug monks
3) Do they live close to you?
- no idea
U is for Unice
1) How is this person related to you?
-online friend?
2) Would you hug this person?
nope unless she's my gf?
3) Have you met any of his/her family?
nope
V is for Verice
1) Would you do anything for him/her?
- Maybe
2) Do you consider them a friend?
- Yea
3) Have you met any of his/her family?
- nope
W is for Wenqi
1) Is this person loud or quiet?
- Neutral
2) Have you seen this person dance?
- i think i dun hav the chance to see it
3) What color eyes does this person have?
- black?
X is for Xavier
1) How old were you when you first met this person?
- forgot liao...
2) Do you like him/her as a friend?
- okok lo
3) Would you go to Disney world with this person?
- no bah?
Y is for Yan Bin
1) How old were you when you first met this person?
- 13
2) What do you think of this person?
- half bad half good?
3) Have you heard this person sing?
- yah
Z is for Zhi rong
1) Does this person have msn?
- Yeah
2) What is their favorite sport?
- idk
3) When did you last see this person?- 2hours 13mins ago...


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Thursday, May 28, 2009

perhaps....
she has no intention of patching..
might as well be friends bah....
sometimes she teached me alot things...
and i learnt...
being more matured...
and all those...
shall not elaborate...
thn as for jamming...
is quite successful nowadays...
th teacher say we can finish this song earlier than he expected...
but we kind of lost a guitarist...
still hunting for 1...
who know how to plae guitar
and he or she must be from our school d...
please come and approach us..ty..
june holiday coming...
alot of event coming up..
npcc there gt alot...
and our class BBQ on 16june...
but im currently still short of money...
saving now..
and i will work hard for my jamming also...
good grades for EOY...
jyjy for my self....


REQ for our guitarist:
must already know basics
as our song d guitar scoresheet for beginner is hard...
so i dun wan beginner guitarist...
plus we onli hav less than 2months...
so...
dun be shy...
if u can,
join us tgt for mjr idol~~


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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

hmmm..
trying to update yeah..
talking about ytd's ite course...
damn boring lah...
but least we played hockey...
quite fun arh...
thn darren,hermun,maolun,me,yan bin,frederick all went outside...
all say go buy ciggerrette...
thn in the end nvr buy...
th more hilarious part is,
we tot we met a policemen..
but it was a prank by the macpherson ite students...
walao...
its not funny okay!
today not goin sch yeah?
cuz sian luh...
ltr goin jamming!
hope to training tat song asap...
trying my best to rmb all the notes for my drum tab...
hmm...
jyjy for myself!!


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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

hey everybody~
im here to update yo~
hmmm..
my MYE...
break record lah
all FAIL~~
wad the fcuk!!
but its okay...
i hope my CA marks can pull some subj up...
anyway nothing to blog about luh...
fri jamming~~!
hahas~

bye~


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Thursday, May 14, 2009

in life...
there's ups and downs...
yes i agree...
even in relationships..
somtimes things dun go smooth...
it might hav some conflicts i guess?
conflicts does happen to couple sometimes...
but i realised i cant take up the challenge...
always tot tat im strong and enuf to withstand everything....
but nvr did i realise im weak in relationship...
im not picky of whoever is my girlfriend...
as long as we hav feelings towards each other..
love each other...
hav the trust...
and the faith in each other...
i dun think there will be any problem...
guess tis wad i know??
i jus wanna tell her...
making herself stays in the past...
does not make her happy...
the past does not equal to the future...
i know she gt a sad past...
all the hurts she gt...
mayb i wouldn understand...
i mean,
she has to look forward always...
people who always stays in the past...
will nvr ever succeed in life...
im not trying to pick on anyone...
im jus stating the facts...
does it means tat...
1 wrong determines his/her future...
sorrie i hav to disagree tat...
could i know tat do i hav th second chance to love her again??
i hav to blame myself...
when im fking angry...
i always cnt control and i jus do wadever i wan..
i was rush...
becuz of this....
i hurt-ed some1 which i could not live without with....
i damn regret now...
should i jus leave her world and stay in my dark corner...
or persevere till thy end no matter wad is the ending...
i dun know...
i wanted to hold her hand...
telling her...
no matter wad...
i will stay by her side protecting her thru my whole life....
but of all of wad i hav done....
makes her loss trust in me....
how i should gain bak her trust??
im lost...
mayb i need some time to find my answers...
and wad she realli want from me...
i realli wanted u bak by my side....
will tat happen??
she said the way i love her is wrong...
mayb i does not understand how but...
hope these days i could find my answers...


i took out a knife and slash out 1 little piece of heaven from my heart and burn it.....


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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Today same luh..
thn suddenly felt weird in my heart...
thn suddenly rmb of her..
tats weird~~
thn i go msg her whether wan patch onot...
thn she was lyk nvr thot tat i would msg for patch lyk tt..
walao...
i gt so bad meh...
i jus feel tat i cnt live without her luh...
haii~~
yeah is quite true..
i waited for sooo long...
thn break up jus lyk tt...
not worth...
i hav decided
i wan to hav a new fresh start with her
will she accept my patch??
she say mux see how i treat her first...
mayb it would be long or short...
i know wad she wan me to do
but i dunoo wad she realli wans...
sumtimes wan tis..
sumtimes wan tat...
haii,...
tis time i will take it easy...
haha...
im lost!!



im stilling loving her....
is she??


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Sunday, May 10, 2009

realli...
sumtings i realli wanna say it out...
hmm...
first thing first
i got a awful girlfriend...
holy man!
i wanna find a toilet and puke lyk no mother business
anyway...
i find it comfortable after puking...
yeepee~~
to all my caring friends...
thanks for ur concern all these while...
i jus wanna tell u im alright...
wad im trying to say is,
emo-ing over tis awful relationship isn worth...
i should look forward and carry on with my life
and i will continue to persue my drum dreams...
and become a rock drummer
tat would take years bah,i guess?
if u would ask me whether i gt tis relationship serious onot..
i would say,
yesh..
but my trust and my time is taken for granted...
luky we didn do anything...
if not ah...realli gone case liao lo
jus lyk zr say...
if her parent nvr hold hand,hug,kiss and tat thing...
how she come out sia??
and i think strongly agreee with it
but saying all tis is jus rewinding my momeries...
i should press the fast forward button...
hmm..good idea!
haii~~
sian lahss
tmr jamming for the 3rd session
shyt la still must see her face....
gg le lahssss
and hor!
ytd at the fellowship ah
she is the noisiest 1 lah
shout lyk no mother business lyk tt
haii~ childish...
lyk dinosaur...
but i thot dinosaur extinct liao??
how come theres' a dinosaur in the 21 century sia??
LMAO~~~
jokerand sadist person of the year

To my friends:
im changing my wearing of clothes style
wad should i go for??
comments pls type on my SHOUT!!!
tyty

cyaz...


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Saturday, May 9, 2009

there's something i hav to tell every1...
i have broke up with Rin....
you might asking why...
the reason is
we are jus not compatible for each other...
im not perfect...
she is not perfect also...
in fact....
we were wrong in some places...
so...
i think dun ask me anything about us...
its over...
AND I HAV NO INTENTION TO PATCH


now is my time to heal my heart.....


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Friday, May 8, 2009

Today fcuking sad lahsss!!
morning go bus stop wait for dear...
thn she come down the bus with elaine,wenqi,meihua they all..
actually is onli me and her walk together to sch d...
she keep stick with they all..
ok lo thn i wait
after tat the whole bunch of girls walk together...
wah...(FCUK!)
thn i think if she wan to follow her friends continue ignore me...
thn go ahead lo...
thn i walk fast to sch find zr...
somehow she msg me ask me why walk fast??
i nvr reply..
tis whole thing affected my performance during math paper and his paper...
i cnt concentrate...
i keep thinking abt the sad things b4 exam...
my mind suddenly become blank...
my heart was somehow bleeding??
tears was trying to come out...
but i hold it there...
i think hor...
ltr the lunch with her sua liao la
after the day..
she realli come ask me wan go lunch together onot...
but with renfang and idk who beside renfang forgot liao...
i wan to ha lunch with her alone d...
haii~~
i thot she understood my means...
but she didn...
instead...
go hav lunch with other ppl lo....
she nvr understand how much i need her...
if realli treat me as boyfriend...
she should hav ask me for lunch alone....
and in the morning should auto come beside me thn go le
not waiting for her friends...
being with her i thot i can be happier and concentrate on my studies well...
but nvr did i realised...
its no different...
instead it has become worse...
hav i disturbed ur life??
i wanna let go....
sadness has cover my happines...
i cnt see the future of us...
dear.....
i love you so much....
hav u ever loved me..???
why do i feel neglected always.??
if u think it is difficult to choose between friends and me...
thn i rather u let me go....
im in pain...
im tired....
dun promis me anything tat u cnt do....
jus lyk today...
actually is onli me and you together go to sch...
in the end...
i could feel u got alot of light bulbs around you....
mayb i would hide in a dark corner and wish tat u hav nvr ever noticed me....
u might think tat tis is a small matter...
or u might say im exaggerating...
but to me..
everything counts in my heart...
im i a close friend or boyfriend to u?
if im ur boyfriend...
prove to me tat im yours....
again and again i trust u with my heart...
again and again u took a needle and slash thru my heart....
u hav made me lost faith in relationship
let me go.....


im dying......


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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Im having a slientlove....
wad does tis means?
thought tat being together with her..
i could found my happiness...
after i realised its not...
between her and me....
we are so slient....
yah...i know...
she need time....
not tat i wan to ask....
i been wanting to know when
i doubt she will tell me...
is a fact tat i love her...
and i know she loves me also....
but..
i found no happiness between us...
we didn tok much
find it very hard to make her appreciate me..
she doesn wan to be pampered....
she does not wan those sweet talkings....
and i accept it...
i jus dun understand...
goin to school together
goin home together
was a hard job for her...
when i ask her whether she wan to go home with me onot..
she said no need..
jus i expected....
i jus wanna know when can we be together openly.....
i does not wan to plae silentlove.....
i can excuse her in school...
but outside?
i cnt believe is still the same....
it hurts...
sometimes...
i wonderin whether she know tat she hurt me...
i dun wan to force her....
she's my everything...
when i look at her....
my heart is tellin me sumting...
she is th one who is making my life worthy...
where is my happiness?
may i know??
im telling myself....
let her hav all the time she need...
day by day....
i see no changes....
i started to felt neglected....
sumtimes i dun even hav the chance to talk to her...
she always stick with elaine,meihua,wenqi they all de...
but...
nvr did i realised...
elaine,trenna, meihua are helpin me and clarin ...
she always ask why clarin always keep a distance from me...
and why she did those ungrateful things to me...
but i forgive her if she feels uncomfortable...
am i a disgrace to her?
i cnt feel the love she had for me....
i jus wan to prove tat i love you....
did u mean tat u doesn wan to give me tis chance?
am i not worthy for u?
if yes,
why u hav to said yes in the first place?
or r u telling me tat
becuz of me,
ur friends might think tat ur taste sux?
why do u hav to mind about wad ppl say about us...
i dun understand....
why do u hav to care for ur reputation...
or am i not important in ur heart?
pls tell me an ans....
i dun wan to live in the dark sitting down in a dark corner....
im waiting for u thru out my life....
are you?
can u stop rejecting everything tat i ask u?
i feels hurt...
someday..
i felt lyk crying....
but i dun wan...
i wonder if ur reputation is more important than me onot....
if yes.
pls let me go out of ur world...
im tired...
I DUN WAN ALL TIS TO HAPPEN!
i want it to be better...
if i would let u choose between reputation and me
which 1 would u choose??
i wonder....
i care for u...
but u doesn wan to accept my care...
u always run away from me....
im ur boyfriend...
not any normal friend...
could u jus trust me with ur heart and be together in a proper way...
yah is true tat im smaller than u by 1 month..
does it mean tat u can say tat im always less mature than you....
if u realli think tat im not mature...
why did u choose me?
i hav alot of question mark in my heart...
i do not know how to ans....
i need u by my side to ans my question....
anyway...
i jus wan you to realise how much i care for you....


ILY alotalotalotalot.......
Rin....when will u understand???


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Saturday, May 2, 2009

today meet zhirong first at lavender...
thn slack after tat feel bored thn go grandlink
plae 1hour lan after tat plae 2 round drummania.
after tat take train go expo meet huizhen they all...
toking about today's service...
i lyk it whole lot
the dr stephen's preach was magnificent!!~~
he said a love story...
LOL~
he was very dramatic worh....
after tat went home with zr...
pangseh rayner for the fellowship...
haha...
to my surprise!
andy gave me a pair of drumsticks~
cool!!!
i was lyk ....stunned...
anyway..
thanks andy...
for ur magnificent present u got for me
so...
tats the end of today~~


INY....
RIN...


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ONCE A AUDITION-ER
ONCE A MAPLE-ER
NOW A NON-GAMER
A JUMPSTYLER
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2.16th birthday
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And,
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He's onli 1 who make me smile,
whenever im sad.
sometimes,
he do things without using his brain,
Tats why im here to guide him=)
i gurrantee plus chopchop,
he's the person i can depend on
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