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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Hi readers, im here confess all my unhappiness... im writing tis, hope ks and zr could see... i dun wish hide shit stuff between we three... firstly, many were still guessing wad happen? but i tell u, th ans u all wanted will be all here... lets be open. tis 3years i had spend in manjusri, realli made me grow and realise alot of things, i had to say sorry to dear brother,kimsia... th way he treat me, is never once ask for reward... knowing him for tat 3years... many told me he was bad fluence to me... i didn tak it to my heart... but slowly... joining npcc, i knew a new friend... his name was zr... as we started to close to each other... i started to neglect ks... i knew i wasn a good friend to ks... eventually, ks disappeared from my life, as i start to be close with zr.... as time passed by.. zr and i turned more than jus a friend... were as close as brothers.... for th past months... i didn bother to contact ks... i change num, i didn bother to tell him, at tat time of me, i was afraid to face him... my faith in him, was gone to th thin air... his trust in me, was unseen... slowly, me and zr were having conflicts, after some time, it was always a happy ending, instead, we turn even closer, but as we turn closer and closer, things get worse... mayb i didn realli know more, but to a extent of knowing, i have experience it myself... wad i wanted to say now, i want to leave him alone, return bak to all his friends, still, im 15years old, he was 16years old, he got his own life, jus get ur own life, forget me instead... didn u realise tats th reason, i had been not listeing ur call... u got ur own business to do... dun do it for me... do it for u and xy... wadever u 2 done, pls dun tell me... im longer interested... if u would ask me today... my concerns are ks and me... zr, if u ask me, which part of ks is better than u? i could say his everything... even though ks is not as talented as u.... being talented doesn mean u got more attractions, when u overdo it, it irritates people... i know,i been saying all tis, u will be veri not happy... but i must say, i wan tis to end. no point i kept to my heart... if u wanna know wad ks had did for me, listen, when tat period of time, i been with u, i neglected ks.. he didn blame me nor angry with me... he didn even ask why i dun hang with him anymore... not cuz he got kimberly... but, he still continue talking to me, saying hi everyday in school... tis year 2009, i thought it was goanna be a better year for me, but i was wrong, it was worse... everything turn so wrong... zr, hope tat u jus forget me bah.... im not a good friend to u nor a good brother... life is always full of choices.... choice have consequences... today, if had a choice, i would choose not to know u,zr.... but i would rather with ks... alot of things happen quickly... i hope, tis time i go japan... i could jus forget me... happily enjoy ur cambodia trip bah... im so sorry,ks... sorry for neglection towards u... until today, u still treat me as good as before, i could still rmb... i was blaming myself, whether u would forgive me onot, but u show it to me... ur gratitude, i would say, a never ending reward for me... Lastly, ks, ur change has affected me... u made me grow spiritually, from now on, i believe, we will be even better than jus brotherhood... ks, if u are kind enuf to spare a thought for zr, dun bother... things get so worse all cuz of me... my hesitation and picky-minded of me... causing th situation now to happen... hope th days i spend in japan, i could forget zr.... AND, ks, realli... wad i have to say to u is, THANK YOU! |
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